July, 2002
She was Gung Ayu. Anak Agung, her first name was from Brahman caste. It means that she comes from highest caste in
“No!!! You can’t!!!! You can’t marry with him!”
“Why ajik? I love him. And I know he loves me too. “
Gung Ayu spoke almost screamed.
“I believe, that we are love each other and I believe that he can make my live happy!!”
“But you must remember. Our family is come from Brahman Caste! His caste is sudra! It means that, you cannot marry with him!!!”
“You can choose the other men to become your husband. Dewa Gung or Gung Ngurah. You can choose one of them!”
“No, I don’t love Dewa Gung or Gung Ngurah!! So, why? Why I can’t marry with him? It only because Bli Gede is Sudra? I can’t believe it!! It is anlogicable!! I love him, only him!!! And he loves me too. It is enough for me!!!.”
Gung Ayu ran to her room, and cry. Her Biang spoke less. She knew what her daughter feeling. But her husband was right. Her family was Brahman Caste. And Gung Ayu was the only one of her daughter. And she did not have the other daughter or son to continue the Dewa Agung Ngurah clan, her husband clan. It means that Gung Ayu must continue the family clan, if not, Sanggah Merajan will be not has any heir and Dewa Agung Ngurah clan will be cepung. She must married with one man who are same caste with her and be ready to nyentana
Biang Ayu entered Gung Ayu room. She looked her daughter cried on the bed. Slowly she sat on the bed, and caresses her daughter’s hair.
“Look at me my princes, I know your feeling”
“No!! You don’t!! You don’t understand what I feel. It is not fair if I can’t marry with bli Gede if only because caste problem. I love him, Biang… I really love him…”
“I know dear, you really love him. I can look at your face. But, don’t you think about our family? How about our sanggah? Who will continue our clan if you still on your convictions?”
Gung ayu was still crying. Spoke less.
“I know dear, it is hard for you. But you can’t leave your responsible. You are the only one of our expectation in family” said Biang Ayu while left her daughter.
****
Gede Arya Wisnutama was Gung Ayu boyfriend since she was in Senior High School. He was the first boyfriend until now. Gung Ayu really loved him. Gede Arya was her price that nobody can change. He was so handsome, really care with her. And he was a faithful man. Every hour, every minutes was a sweet moment with him. And Gung Ayu known, really know that the family rule banned her relationship with Gede Arya. The caste rule and culture limited her choice. But Gung Ayu decided to stand with her expectation. She believes that Siti Nurbaya era was over. She would take every consequence that she has. She believes that!!!
“Gung Ayu, exactly I won’t to choose a false choice. I really love you. My love is stronger than everything in the world. I want live with you. But, can you are mine if Ajik and Biang still don’t agree with our relationship?” said Gede Arya
“No Bli Gede!! I don’t care with them. I really love you. Whatever their word, I still loving you! And I believe with you. You will keep my heart. Always!!
“I love you too my dearly love. And if you believe with me, I will keep you with all my power. Trust me!!” Whispered Gede Arya although his heart still worries.
Gung Ayu smiled. This night was the most great ever her lives. And star shined so bright, as bright as her heart.
****
October, 2002
The star shined brightly in the dark sky, decorated the lonely moon in the rainbow veil. A little bat dancing in the giant coconut leaf. It was October, the summer month. Every human could prepare what he or she want. But everything could not happen as we expected. It is God power that makes everything happen.
Three month passed so fast. It was summer, but it was different day. Rain fell in the midday. Gung Ayu still keeps her convictions. She wants to marry with Gede Arya, although her parent, expecialy her father still banned her relationship with Gede Arya. She really believes that Gede Arya was the right man for her live.
Three month passed so fast, there was no any reason, why. Gede Arya never came to Gung Ayu home. No any reason, no any news why Gede Arya never came. Gung Ayu did not understand about it. His phone was not active.
“Does he not love Gung Ayu anymore? Or is he so hopeless with his relationship? Or is he….”
No, Gung Ayu didn’t want to think about that. She know that Gede Arya really love her. She still remembered his promise that his love is stronger than everything in the world. But, three month passed without any reason why Gede Arya disappeared. Gung Ayu was getting restless
Gung Ajik, Gung Ayu’ Father was sick. Day after day his condition deteriorated. He was an old man, 76 years old. Too old to survive with all problems in his live. Until one day, he passed away. Before Gung Ajik passed away, his testament said that Gung Ayu must get married with Agung Ngurah, and continue the family clan.It makes Gung Ayu fell in the deep sadness. She felt lost all of her lives.
Gung Ayu felt it was not fair but, no any choice more. She must marry with Gung Ngurah, although she never loved him. Gede Arya Wisnutama, was disappear, took her love and her heart, without any reason. Everything gone, everything was useless, everything was over. Her hearts, her lives.
****
February 2003
Honey moon is a big happiness moment for many couple. It must be a special moment to celebrate our love, and celebrate our new life with our lovely person. But that was not happened with Gung Ayu. Her wedding party was over. Her honey moon spent in Legian, one of romantics place in Bali. But it was not a romantic moment for Gung Ayu. Although she was married with a handsome and rich man, she still felt that her heart was poor, without any love. A half year was passed. It was not made Gung Ayu can erase her love to Gede Arya. Her love is only for Gede Arya, only for him.
Gung Ngurah, her Husband still took the picture in the Legian Bomb Bali Monument. It was a place where the Bomb Tragedy happened in October 2001, where many people, tourist, also local boy became the victim of terrorist brutality. That was a black moment in Bali. But now, there was a beautiful place with a monument which decorated with small garden. In this monument there was written the name of this tragedy victims. Gung Ayu looked at the monument and slowly read one by one the name which was written in this monument. Suddenly her eyes could not believe what was written. Between Hundred names, there were written a name “Gede Arya Wisnutama”.. She did not believe it. So, it was the reason why Gede Arya left her without any reason. So it was the reason why Gede Arya…. It because…. Oh no…
Her vision was dark……
****
October, 2005
Every human could prepare what he or she want. But everything could not happen as we expected. There is God power that makes everything happen. He knows when the true time to give happiness or sadness, but whatever is that, Love is the biggest power that human has. And true love is never end although the God choose the sadness to given to us.
A lady with a red rose came to the Bali Bomb Monument in Legian. Carefully she smiled, and put his red rose in front of the monument. Warm from the afternoon sun was not too stinging her smooth skin. She still looked at the monument, his tears creep down on her cheek. Slowly she whispered
“My love is never end for you, bli Gede Arya”
Author notes:
Sudra : the lowest caste in Bali social culture
Bli : name for older brother or someone who older than us in Bali
Anak Agung : one of high Caste in Bali
Ajik : Father
Biang : Mother
Sanggah Merajan : a holy place for Balinese
Cepung : un continued generation
Nyentana : a man who lives together with his wives family and continued his wives clan
